No appetite

"If you were the love, I'd be the desire"

Maybe if i keep telling myself it'll be fine,
i wouldnt feel as defeated.
& even if i feel defeated, at least he make things better.

Floating Away

I attempted to dye my hair a bit darker, but the fact that no one noticed, i'll assume it didnt work quite well.
On the othre note, I feel like im back to where i was.
& this is why i prefer being with him more than anyone else.

I feel pretty lonely.

New diet.

Now all i need is Cream Cheese & Chocolate Soy Milk and my NEW diet will be complete.
Goodbye Takis.

I dislike cold weather, but i dislike windy days more.
I feel like im somewhere else compared to everyone. I feel distant.
& i feel unwanted, unimportant, & worthless to my friends.
Also, my self-esteem has dropped even more.
Oh wells. Time to pig out on ritz.
PS i got short bangs.

Everything that shine

"Aint always gonna be gold."

Crush a bit, little bit, roll a bit, take a hit.

Feelin lit, feelin light, 2am summer night.

I dont care, hand on the wheel, drivin drunk,

doin my thing.

Im on the Pursuit of Happiness.

I dislike the cold weather.

Chasin

They be chasin for love
while i be watching emm run.

Cause i already got mine.

Do your fingers itch,

"Are you pistol whipped?"

Im at the point of my life where im lazy about everything & anything.

On the other note, i spent my weekend with my Marshmallow, which i absolutely enjoyed. I can talk about anything & everything, whatever that's on mind. He never fails to amuse me.

"Steak-age"

Yaoki

"Even when the sky is falling down,
I know I have you & it's all I need.

Even when the world is breaking down,
I know I have you & it's all I need."

-Simple Starving To Be Safe.

I've never

hated myself this much.

I'd change my personality
if i could.

Painting rainbows

"On my ugly face."

I remember i used to watch Cutie Honey (anime) all the time when i was 4? 5??
I wanted to be just like her.

Cover me with kisses

"Baby, cover me with love."

To Kingdom Come

"I believed in you so you'd believe in... me."

These past days, i've been caught up with my self consciousness. Not only the cover but also the inside. Envious of others.
& i find myself feeling pretty down.

I try to change the way i am, but seems like it's too hard. Because im trying to be someone im not.
But then it all comes back to the beginning.

Cycle.
Everyone i admire is everywhere.

How do i learn to love myself for who i am?

& i feel unwanted when i attend school.

Mio's ;;

So due to my mom's lagging on the computer, it's past midnight

& i wasnt able to post this blog at the right date. I went to Santa Monica & Torrance to the Japanese stores.
Got myself some Pokemon Ramune. Then celebrated my sister's 9th birthday.

Worst Day Ever

April Fools!!

I went to the beach with my marshmallow.

The warm sun & the icy wind made the day really calm & pretty. On the way to my house, we stopped at [Top Secret] bakery store to buy some cookies for myself & burritos for Kevin to try. The lady gave me extra cookies :) & Kevin enjoyed his burrito. Cause burritos there are bomb.

Overall, a good day.

I just love spending my day with my boo.