Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Orange Julius

So last night, Lorena slept over at my house.
We went pretty crazyy with make up so we ended up
putting a face powder darker than our skin tone.
Hence the weird... tan looking face on the picture.

Went to the mall with Matt, Carlos, Jonathan, Jon, and Ruben. Cause Carlos wanted to get a haircut "Salon Style". Jonathan bought me a smoothie from Orange Julius, which was delicious!

Then headed back to Carlos' house to watch some films & munch on Little Cesar's pizza. Around 9:30, Matt&Jon walked me home:)

Monday, March 29, 2010

Envy ;

I think i have an ugly personality. Along with my looks.
Self conscious?

& people are gonna tell me "No you're not" and all that poopsters.
But cant change how i feel.

Saturday, March 27, 2010


I took the bus to the mall today with Melinie&Ranier in the uglyass weather. I was committed on spending my money for Pookie. Went to Victoria's Secret. I wish i owned that place. The way back, irritated.
Bby was there at Sunkist. & i went to his place for awhile.

"Have you ever liked someone so much that even if you lost all of your friends, you felt like life will still be okay?"

Friday, March 26, 2010


I spent my day with Keviiiiin. I tried to be adventurous so i've decided to walk from the Sunkist to Kevin's house, past Hemlock. So i get to hemlock, waiting for the blue man to pop up. Randomly, this guy shows up out of nowhere. Being friendly, introducing himself as JT. Then as we crossed the street, he got too friendly. Some 30~40 year old guy was trying to get 16 year old's cell phone number. Luckily, i got to Kevin's house and he was standing outside. So the old man left.
I watched Akira for the first time. My mind was blown. Hard. When it ended, i was confused. I was confused for being confused. I had questions in my head but i never found out what the questions were. We were gonna watch more but we ended up (or at least i did) falling asleep.
Kevin made me a dinner, Kimchi fried rice. It was really delicious. I actually wanted to keep on eating but my plate was clean&gone.
Days spent with him are always amazing. Time flies too fast though.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Only time

When we are apart, whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what i call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?

It's one of those... days, week. Where every little thing eats inside you. & every little thing liberates my anger. Uneasy weight takes over.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

One Wish

If i had a one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it will just begin.
If i had a one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you.
I feel pretty down.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

My words cannot make it safe.

(come running home! come running home!)
This is my last chance, to take back, no regrets.

Temptations ruined my night yesterday, terribly. My mom wants me to take counseling. I havent dropped so many tears ever since with joey. Kevin's call saved me. I would've kept on crying.

Today ;; got ready with tired eyes, covered in black dress for Pacifica. Im surprised we've earned Excellent. Rest of the day, i spent my day with the bby.
If feels really nice to have someone who can make everything all better. Someone who i can be with for the longest and be entertained for the whole entire day. I feel attached.

Thursday, March 18, 2010


Monthly mother nature, i despise you.
My dinner ;; 親子丼.

I want to be recognized as "that style of art"
Not as, "that person who can 'draw'".

I think i'll go listen to Passion Pit
& calm my mind.
They give outrageous images to my mind,
it's so difficult to copy on to a white plain paper.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010


I started off my day with sharp pain in my stomach. I guess i've learned to not to sleep with my window open more than 2 inches or else i'll get sick & get a fever.
So i've stayed home, frustrated for missing precal and french (now i have to take the final). I've spent my day watching America's Next Top Model marathon while sipping on orange juice and texting Kevin.

"he can like you all he wants but i love you the most"

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Port Hueneme

I never knew Hueneme/Oxnard could look so nice.
I went to the rich side today on Victoria's Ave with Kevin.
He bought me a smoothie :)

Friday, March 12, 2010


"I only think about her, must get to her, cannot lose her.
You know that i will not let this die."

Sunday, March 7, 2010


Past Burns

It's past midnight. The house is quiet & everyone is asleep.
While im still up, texting.
Then suddenly i have the sudden erge to read stuff from the past.
It's bittersweet.
& some, even... upsetting and frustrating.
I cannot change the past but i cannot help but to feel idiotic.
to feel how stupid & credulous i was.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Seems like

"The only thing i think about
ohhh oh,
well is you all the time"
Mission accomplished ;; Bought myself a bracelet. Still wanting more like those though ^
Ran into many people from school. Found some interesting stuff at Borders.
Day spent with my bby.
Im happy.

Monday, March 1, 2010


He wakes up alone. He sleeps alone.
I do sympathize for him sometimes.
Although i dislike him with a passion,
even if i do not have any thoughts about changing the way i feel about him,
i do get curious of what's going through his mind.
His corrupted mind.

I rethink.
& i get back to the reality.
This is the way it is right now,
because, as harsh as it sounds,
He fucked up.