Monday, May 31, 2010


Went to the mall with Pookie & tried on dresses.
As you can see, they only had ugly ones.

We worked it though, haha.
I liked the last one.
Lorena bought me make up today:)
Cant wait for tomorrow.


Sunday, May 30, 2010


More on Flickr :)
Walked around MainStreet with Steven. I tried on 4 outfits and i fell in love with all of them. Too bad i didnt have enough cashh. One piece was probably around $48.

After taking over 130 pictures, i bought chicken cesar wrap from Jersey Mike's.
Pretty B0MB.

Saturday, May 29, 2010


But there's no where to go.


She's so hott , like daaamn. ;; I want her boobs.

Friday, May 28, 2010

"Stay with me,"

"..this is what i need, please?"
Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?
This heart, it beats,
beats only for you.
My heart is yours.
(Please dont go now, please dont fade away)
Im thirsty for muthacrackiiin Chocolate SoyMilk.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

It's impossible

To look pass through my eyes
& see what i see. feel what i feel.

I am unstable.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Why is it ;

that always. Always, ALWAYS.
Every situation.
Even in this situation,
one has the ability to sink my cruise without noticing?
Infact we rarely pass words.

No matter how far one travels,
even if thousand miles away,
messengers are everlasting.

Stop following me where ever I go.
Quit reenacting from the past
& just leave me alone.

What happened to the shadow you were chasing?
That used to belong to me.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

So glad.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

I love ;;

Kevin Iglupas more than anyone.
& i truly mean it.

FirstKiss, First Actual Boyfriend, First to give me his shirt, First to celebrate my birthday. First guy i cooked for, First to cook for me, First guy to spend a whole Valentines together, Many Firsts.
He was the guy i've always looked back at.
& im glad im with him.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010


Concert was pretty entertaining.

Love, love, love. You outshine everybody in the crowd.

Monday, May 17, 2010

17th Birthday

Im very thankful for everyone who said Happy Birthday to me and few that gave me presents.
Melinie got me a movie, bracelet, lipstick, pen, headphones, a beanie, many more. Steven got me a tequila. Ericka got me Starbucks giftcard, a hello kitty doll, and five bucks. Surprisingly, Arturo showed up and gave a Mr.T bottle signed by Dance Gavin Dance.
After drumline, Kevin came over to eat dinner with my family.

I couldnt have asked for a better birthday.
Im overwhelmed.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Bye 16 ;;

Yesterday, i went to Camarillo Outlets with Lorena after volunteering at the Strawberry Festival. Surprisingly, i only spent 10$. I fell in love with that dress.Today, after drumline carwash, i went over to Kevin's house. He made me a dinner while i fell asleep watching Undateables on VH1. Then he played "Simple Starving to be Safe" by Daphne Loves Derby on the guitar & he gave me a red lipstick i've always been wanting.
I am very much satisfied.
17 tomorrow.

At a moment

where i dont want to go to school
because i feel incredibly unintelligent.
where i dont want to get a job
because i just want to stay in my room.
where i dont want to see anyone
because all they do is bother me.
where i feel like isolating everyone
because i feel like it doesnt matter.
where i want to stop breathing
because it's already hard for me to breathe.

& Im just exaggerating
because every little stupid shit bothers me when im feeling shitty.

I still dislike the mornings.
When i walk in, i always, ALWAYS turn away.

Friday, May 14, 2010

My idol

She's petite & gorgeous.
I wish i could look like her.
Sadly, I dont have the money for faux eyelashes nor circle lenses. Hah.

Thursday, May 13, 2010


"Compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright."

I need a job... but something i'll love doing ;; Cosmetics, Fashion, &/or Photography. As long as im doing what i love doing, i wouldnt mind how much i get paid as long as it's fair.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

When the Sun Goes Down

"Although you're trying not to listen
avert your eyes and staring at the ground
she makes a subtle proposition"
-Arctic Monkeys

Tuesday, May 11, 2010


Jealousy gets me no matter what time of the day it is.
Especially in the morning.
It'll put me in a terrifying silence.

Jealousy is disgustingly hideous.
Well.. at least i can admit it.
One positive for me?

Sunday, May 9, 2010


She thought she had the key, but it never existed.
More than a half a year of slience.
Wishes into dust and dreams into a hole.
Stars never showed its face.
Even at the end, Nothing.

His simple and light apology ;
Shock and speechless.
Even at the end, still couldnt explore his unknown mind.

What was even on his mind for those eight months?

Just a curiosity.

Saturday, May 8, 2010


Look for MiniMarshuu at :)
J'ai regarde "When They Cry" (Aka Higurashi no nakukoroni) avec Kevin & Melinie a chez moi.
Et je suis allee au TDM avec Kevin & Gabriel. J'ai mange l'Asada Burrito & j'ai bu le Horchata.

Ugh. French. i tried. haha

TDM = B0mbSkeeez!

Friday, May 7, 2010

Abandon Me

Dont go where they go.
Nobody knows you the way you know you.
But i think i do.
But i thought i knew.

Im not jealous. I just wished i had their beauty.
Im not jealous. I just wished i had those things.
Im not jealous. I just wished i had more connections.
Im not jealous. I just wished i didnt have to wish.

Sunday, May 2, 2010


It was intense.
(Joey Ortega on the left)

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Stay till my word

"Because i can send you to the side."

Open Your Eyes and Look North.