Monday, July 27, 2009


7am. Couldnt sleep until 9am.
My hands sting from the touch with the bitterness on my tongue.
My eyes burn from the sight of the past.
To feel numb.
The stings disappear with the clouds that i create.
Leaving that odd taste in my mouth.
My eyes melt, creating a new world filled with fantasies.

I crave.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Fear ;

I stand on palm of your hands. You know if you hold on to me too tight, i'll break. Therefore, because i am weak. When you hold me gently and carefully as possible, i fear that i might fly out of your hand and fall on to the cold ground. Fear, that i will be lost in the city i do not know of, and chasing after your shadows when your presence is everywhere. Fear, that i will not only lose your shadow, but my own. Fear, that my escape would be gone forever ;
You, are my escape.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Steamed Vegetables

I wish i was the actual "meal" instead of the "steamed vegetables" that are on the side that no one eats.

When i mention how amazing and wonderful my friends are, im not lying. I mean every single word that i say.
it's shocking and heartbreaking when my friends doubt my words.
Especially when they know how much they mean to me.
& how much i love them.

I may not be the best, greatest friend on earth.
infact, i probably suck at being a friend.
But that doesnt mean the things i say are not from my heart.

Why would i say meaningless words if i am your friend?

Monday, July 20, 2009

Lewis & Clark Adventure

The sun burnt my skin with its heat. After Clark took the last puff of the cigarette, we walked to a bus stop. Rode on the bus from Port Hueneme to Main Street in Ventura.

I finally hung out with Arturo today. It's been probably like.. two weeks?
Time fleww superr fast.

Second time riding on the bus. it's really entertaining and very exciting.
I felt like a kindergartner who was going on a field trip for the very first time.

i hate myself for not taking my camera.
Arturo and I saw bunch of interesting things.

Soon, Andy joined Lewis and Clark's adventure.

Went to the Cross (?) = amazing.
it reminded me of like teenagers having sex in their car at night after enjoying the city lights.
You know, those... famous scenes in cartoons and movies and shiii --
it was even on the AT&T commercial ;; Well not the sex part.
O f f T o p i c.

Good day , good day ;;
didnt even think about shit that's been bothering me.

"Hey babe,"
ahh, interesting.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Insomnia ;; beach

Went to sleep at 7am and woke up at 11am.
These past days, i cant seem to fall asleep at night.
I always sleep during the morning.

So another late post at a midnight.
Today, (basically yesterday) i went to the Beach with Lorena.
i got more tan, sadly.

A lot of guys were trying to pick us up hahaha.
As soon as we get near the water,
one guy comes up to us asking if we wanted to Party with them,
"Heyy, you guys wanna party? We have some vodka and cranberry"
Then when we were laying on the sand,
these three guys randomly starts talking to us for like 15 minutes.

Took bunch of pictures!!
but i cant or dont want to put them on the new computer
because i dislike this computer.

i want my dad to fix the hard drive on the old one so i can have the computer in my room.

Thursday, July 16, 2009


Nothing to do ; i was going to type about my thoughts but i've decided to put those things to the side because most of the posts are ... i guess.. "emo"-ish?

Well! Todayy, (technically yesterday)
i went to the pool on base [*Note : i cannot swim] with Melinie, Dianne, Jeremy, and his brother, Robert.
Havent been to the pool in such a long time.

So after going in the water couple of times, i wanted to fix my tan line from my shorts.
i've totally forgotten that i did not put a sunscreen on my shoulders and my chest.
So i got burnt. [I didnt noticed until when i went to go take a shower around 1am]

I would post some pictures but i have a new computer
& im not supposed to be saving things yet because i havent trasferred my files from my old computer.
Ohhh Good News!!<3>
Since we (my family) got a new computer,
i get to keep the old one .
Which the computer isnt bad, it's been three years but that's still pretty new i suppose.
i dont think it's a good computer for sharing with the family
so yeah.

The End!

Friday, July 10, 2009

My day

I've decided to draw about my day because it was very boring.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009


Why was six afraid of seven???
Because seven ATE nine. AHAHAHAH, knee slapper

I drew again, two kitties watching sunset.
;; I was reading a manga today and it's basically about drama and love. Got me wanting to draw something nice & pretty. Something... romantic??
Today was pretty an okay day. On the way to the doctors today, i was playing "Gayfish", "Im on a boat", "I jizzed in my pants", etc. in the car. Yes, infront of all of my siblings and my mom. They didnt understand the song so it was a bummer.
I took a bubble bath todayy!
So niiiiiice .
im gonna stop now.
i just realized i put
"WITH a fucking ton"
i meant "weighs a fucking ton"
i should check what i typed before i post. hah

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Art for Joey

Washington, washingtonn,
six foot eight with a fucking ton.
That song has been stuck in my head all day .

So i got inspired to draw today by listening to some soft music.
So i've decided to draw for Joey when
Boats and Birds by Gregory and the Hawk came on

Not that much of an amazing drawing,
but it has a lot of meaning to it
especially because it's for Joseph Ortega

I am the dark night sky, so you, my star can shine bright.
I live to make you shine.

Sunday, July 5, 2009


On July 2nd and 3rd, i went to my very first Anime Expo.
It was pretty wonderful. They had many things that reminded me of the animes i used to watch when i was a kid. A lot of cosplayers.

AX09 day 1 : I've dressed up as Misty from Pokemon. "Inaccurate" misty because of my red hair which was supposed to be orange-ish color. i blame my mom , haha.

i've never felt so awkward about being asked if they could take a picture of me.
Honestly, i was scared. (especially this one quiet creepy guy)
During the lunch break in the car, or basically the end of the day, i've felt pretty crappy, probably because i was the only girl. Then i somewhat got better.

AX09 day 2 : I've learned to ignore. that's all im going to say.