Monday, March 28, 2011
She's the best at anything that comes in her way.
She very well understands psychology
(because she was trying to major it when we were in japan)
She stands right below "perfection".
Everyone has flaws, therefore she has flaws.
And i indeed see her flaws.
She's been leaving me home since i was little
back then was because she had to work. She had three jobs.
Then when my step father came in,
it wasnt "work".
They leave me home, throwing me to hold responsiblities for my siblings.
while they stay out for few hours.
I fucking hated it.
& all of the sudden in my senior,
they start doing the same shit again.
I FUCKING HATE IT.
I love my mom,
but i expected more class
and more sense in what she's doing.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Saturday, March 26, 2011
"Let's hang out" - never happens.
"You're my friend" "You're my best friend" - yet there's no effort for them to talk to me.
When i text people, they'll eventually stop texting me. & they're never the first ones to text me.
I just want more friends to talk, to be with.
What am i doing wrong?
What is it that im not liked?
Is it my whole personality?
Am i not interesting?
Am i supposed to change?
Change in what way?
What am i doing wrong?
Sunday, March 20, 2011
I went to see the band kids perform at Pacifica High School.
Baked them peanut butter cookies.♥
Afterwards, went to Toppers with people.
Then went to the mall with Kevin, Justin, & Dez.
i went to target;;
Friday, March 18, 2011
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
yet so sketchy because you're not sure if the money you donate is going towards the cause 100% or if the organization is going to take some percentage of money.
Text REDCROSS to 90999 to give $10 to Japan.
They charge you on your phone bill.
Lady Gaga Japn Earthquake Relief:
The wristband is $5.00 you can donate the amount you desire.
From $5 donation to $100.
PS, dropping Nuclear Weapon to Japan was karma for Japan bombing Pearl Harbor,
so dont bring that shit up saying "Earthquake and tsunami is a Karma for bombing Pearl Harbor".
Monday, March 14, 2011
So, she's trying to say that
she prayed for more than ten thousand people to be killed?
Im not religious,
i dont believe in the ways of Christianity and Catholics.
That's just my opinion.
But i dont push other people to believe in what i believe in.
this video pisses me off.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
im here with friends and im laughing, living my daily life.
But i feel fortunate because for the first time in my life,
i felt like i was glad to be here and not in Japan.
Also because my family is okay.
Yesterday at school,
people were making a big deal of tsunami hitting japan
and where i live.
It is pretty amazing that tsunami from japan can hit here.
But i dont think it's necessary for people to make a big deal out of it.
I was surely getting irritated at school
because all they talk about is tsunami hitting here.
It's not a big deal. Seriously.
Compared to Japan it's nothing.
& i hate their sympathetic voices too.
My physics teacher showed the news during class.
and i saw how fast the tsunami was hitting, everything floating away.
I knew how many deaths, and good idea of how many people were missing.
But of course here,
no one really cares.
It was upsetting to see my classmates BORED watching.
Like they had no emotions.
It was simply, "Oh, that sucks".
I was making jokes but,
Honestly watching the video made me feel like shit.
I had to joke around or else i would've ended up crying.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Im not saying im not one of them because i know im ignorant and stupid & in other people's eyes i must fall into those categories.
But here is my rant.
This is especially towards girls.
Some of them happen to care about "World Peace", "No War", "No Hate".
and that's fine, whatever makes them happy in life.
But if i see it coming from someone
who cant even handle their own SHIT.
meaning, they cant even handle their own little STUPID highschool drama
they need to shut up.
What do they do?
We all do what we do the best.
If you want "No Hate"
you better make sure your personality is CLEAN.
It's difficult to handle my own self
Especially it has to deal with me in the situation.
I get short temper from my mom
i get my anger issue from my biological dad
and that's not a beautiful mixture.
But here i am.
You guys have no clue of what nasty images i have in my head.
and WISH i could do to some of the people who cross upon my life.
but i get over my anger in an hour ish.
and im a happy person again :D
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Monday, March 7, 2011
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Saturday, March 5, 2011
The only people i always hang out
and always hits me up are my best friend and my boyfriend.
Since freshmen year,
i've lost alot of best friends.
Infact too many best friends.
This year i was wanting more friendships
but i lost em.
im feelin low right now.