I want to be ahead of everyone
instead, im far behind.
& i feel like i cant catch up to them because i lack motivation.
I want to be just as great as people around me.
It's funny how i've been trying to put my thoughts into this blog for the last 30 minutes, but i keep erasing what i had written/typed on here, and i never end up blogging about what's actually on my mind.
I think i'll try to sleep because it's 4:35am.