Goodbye

2010.

Pookie:)

I hung out with Lorena and we finally exchanged our christmas gifts.

She got alotta mini 3 musketeers chocolates, which as of now, i only have four left.

A stitch doll

& Victoria's Secret Eyeshadows

Luminous Mineral Eyeshadow in Luxe.

Sheer taupe color.

Brilliant Shimmer Shadow in Stardust
it's Taupe-ish campaign color with pink undertone.

I edited some pictures during the day;;

Photos!

That's how the sky looked from Steven's glasses.

There it goes

Once again.
Why do i ALWAYS feel like this.
why is it that when i post something that deals with my emotions,
it's always the same thing.

MerryChristmas

I hope you guys enjoyed your christmas.

:)

Christmas Eve.

It's Christmas Eve and my boyfriend came over :)
We exchanged gifts ;;

Myuuuu, it's soo cute!
&he got me the glasses i wanted since July :D
チョ～嬉しい！
ありがとう。♥

Nyaan

お仕事、行ってきま～す！♥

"LOVE CA$H"

Thats what it says on muhh nails.

ねぇ、ねぇ、ねぇ、ねぇ、 今日はどこに行こうかな？

ねぇ、ねぇ、ねぇ、ねぇ、二人の思い出を重ねて

I want Perfume to release a new album already!

Anne Klein

My step father surpringly got me something from a brand called Anne Klein.
I dont really know my brands but what he got me was really cute.

While my parents were out, i finished Soul Eater.

^^^ He is my favorite character cause i think he's cool.
Along with him vvv

Dyed

I got bangs! You can see BOTH of my eyes now.

Every single time i dye my hair darker, within two weeks-ish, the dark shade starts fading away and im back to my "Normal" hair color which is the bright, orange-ish brown.

Dx

Make it go away.

When im by myself,
why do i always feel like... i have no friends that are close to me.?

Everyday it feels like im growing apart from my best friends.
& when i do hang out with them, i cant seem to think of anything interesting to talk about....

Kevin Uson!

This was on monday :)

DezzyPoo.

Generosity

Being generous for someone for your own benefits is not the definition of generosity.
Dont be foolish.
No one really cares for anyone in this world.
Except for your family. Maybe.
Possibly your lover, possibly your friend.
But that's not the point.

The point is chasing doesnt get you anywhere.
You fall for a second and by time you get up,
everyone is gone.
Why?
Because they wont dare to wait for you.
They dont care.

I had a dream today

Pretty Brutal.
I was hanging out with group of friends.
& next thing you know, i was running away and hiding from them
because i was scared for some reason.
Then one of my guy friend found me.
Then his fest landed on my body.
He kept on beating me
& i was throwing up blood.

Meow!!

This was my outfit for today:)
I love love love the skirt.

Shopping Fever

Doesnt stop until christmas is over.

Because that's when cash in your wallet is Gone-Skeez.

Hi, it's Friday and i wore this and black sandals on a cold day. I have no idea why.

My parents took me shopping. I spent $104 at WetSeal. This employee there was really good at making business cause she had me buy this pretty pink dress. i dont know where im gonna wear it to, but oh wells. I bought skirts!
And some materials for the research paper:(
But what was exciting is that i bought stuff for Kevin :))
with my money of course.

No one

really reads my blog posts. so i think it's fine if i get personal on here. Besides, i need to let things out. and i dont want to be taking it out on people i love.
So since yesterday, i've been pissed off.
Yesterday was simply because of annoying people at school. That's fine, time goes by, i move on with my life. But today, when small things pile up as the day goes by to the end of the day, i am sick and tired. And as i mentioned on the other post, when im pissed off or whatever, my mind function gets intense.

1. Im tired of school. yeah, everyone gets tired of school. So am i. I cant stand seeing immature little kids running around with their obnoxious groups, style, and attitude. But what's worse is you got these seniors who doesnt seem to grow the fuck up. And there are some seniors who's mind are so naive. Telling me about their unfaithful stories or how some are taking advantage of people. Then i got these office people (because i am an office aide) who just orders the kids to put these STACKS of slips away in the cabinets, one by one in an alphabetical order. On top of that, i feel like a loser because im surrounded by these people who've applied to the universities. especially in calculus, i feel stupid because while everyone is doing a GOOD JOB, im here with an ALRIGHT-BUT-YOU-SHOULD-DROP-THE-CLASS-BECAUSE-YOU-SUCK.

2. For the past weeks, my parents have been getting along. And i thought that made me happy. However, they just annoy me. I've gotten used to that fact of not having a father, and seeing my stepfather and my mom argue constantly, seeing them getting along bugs me. Especially when they go out randomly at middle of the night and have me babysit. Then i got my first sister who has.. anger issues and she hates my youngest sister. That pisses me off but i feel guilty because it's my fault that she's like that. When i see her actions, i see a reflection of me but more intense.

3. When my dad bitch little things about me, it's so annoying than him bitching about the obvious things that i did wrong. Like when i stole shit, yeah i would understand. But when it comes to "being on time" and shit, he needs to shut the fuck up because he has no room to be talking. Infact i dont why he's bitching at what i do when he cant do his shit right.

i feel like i had more to type but my head hurts. and i cant think anymore
because im so bothered right now.

Wednesday

Hi, it's wednesday and this is what i wore;

I've had obsessions with glasses ever since i was little, probably because my first crush in kindergarten was wearing glasses. So anyways, when i saw the necklace, i had to get it :D

So today is not an usual "okay" day for me. Rather, people annoyed me. Probably the only thing that made my day was Matthew texting me. Once i get annoyed, my mind tends to function furthermore and as minutes, as hours goes by, i am more annoyed and pretty much pissed off to a point where i can cuss for the whole entire time. Then i think too much to a point where i dont even know what im thinking about.

& this is a habit i've created since i was little. I was never able to tell what was on my mind, especially in person. Still to this day, i have trouble saying what is bothering me, especially when i am pissed off at that person. So instead, i keep my anger in me, which just ends up building up. More mind function goes on. & i breakdown.

i dont even know why im explaining this on here.