Talking about bad things in life.

#1. Getting tanner.

Mother

I love my mother.
She's the best at anything that comes in her way.
She very well understands psychology
(because she was trying to major it when we were in japan)

She stands right below "perfection".
below perfection.
Everyone has flaws, therefore she has flaws.
And i indeed see her flaws.

She's been leaving me home since i was little
back then was because she had to work. She had three jobs.
Then when my step father came in,
it wasnt "work".

They leave me home, throwing me to hold responsiblities for my siblings.
while they stay out for few hours.
I fucking hated it.

& all of the sudden in my senior,
they start doing the same shit again.
I FUCKING HATE IT.

I love my mom,
but i expected more class
and more sense in what she's doing.

what's worse?

Knowing the reason why you're truely upset.
Or
Not knowing why you're upset.?

Photography

^ taken by Kevin :)

I went on a photography session with my baabe

for my english project.

& what they look like;;

The last two pictures were taken a long time ago.. haha

Too bad i didnt have a 8 x 11 photo paper "//

i had to use 4 x 6.

But it's okay, cause i still did my project.

Words

dont carry much meaning anymore.

"Let's hang out" - never happens.
"You're my friend" "You're my best friend" - yet there's no effort for them to talk to me.

When i text people, they'll eventually stop texting me. & they're never the first ones to text me.
I just want more friends to talk, to be with.

What am i doing wrong?
What is it that im not liked?
Is it my whole personality?
Am i not interesting?
Am i supposed to change?
Change in what way?

What am i doing wrong?

Saturday

My ootd from yesterday:)
I went to see the band kids perform at Pacifica High School.
Baked them peanut butter cookies.♥
Afterwards, went to Toppers with people.
Then went to the mall with Kevin, Justin, & Dez.

After i got birthday present for my best friend,
i went to target;;

I finally got my Wet n Wild color icon eyeshadow in Vanity♥

E.l.f blush in Pink Passion

♥

Buzzin

Kevin took pictures of me.

One year & Twoo months!

Mya. Ismael took me on a hot date.

He bought me tutti frutti and french fries from carls jr.

Donation

Donations are such a good thing
yet so sketchy because you're not sure if the money you donate is going towards the cause 100% or if the organization is going to take some percentage of money.

BUT HERE!

American Redcross:
Text REDCROSS to 90999 to give $10 to Japan.
They charge you on your phone bill.
Click Here

Lady Gaga Japn Earthquake Relief:
The wristband is $5.00 you can donate the amount you desire.
From $5 donation to $100.
Click Here


PS, dropping Nuclear Weapon to Japan was karma for Japan bombing Pearl Harbor,
so dont bring that shit up saying "Earthquake and tsunami is a Karma for bombing Pearl Harbor".

Pray

Religion

I despise people like this


So, she's trying to say that
she prayed for more than ten thousand people to be killed?

Im not religious,
i dont believe in the ways of Christianity and Catholics.
That's just my opinion.
But i dont push other people to believe in what i believe in.

this video pisses me off.

Japan

I feel guilty because even though japan had their tragic crisis,
im here with friends and im laughing, living my daily life.

But i feel fortunate because for the first time in my life,
i felt like i was glad to be here and not in Japan.
Also because my family is okay.

Yesterday at school,
people were making a big deal of tsunami hitting japan
and where i live.
It is pretty amazing that tsunami from japan can hit here.
But i dont think it's necessary for people to make a big deal out of it.
I was surely getting irritated at school
because all they talk about is tsunami hitting here.
It's not a big deal. Seriously.
Compared to Japan it's nothing.
& i hate their sympathetic voices too.

My physics teacher showed the news during class.
and i saw how fast the tsunami was hitting, everything floating away.
I knew how many deaths, and good idea of how many people were missing.

But of course here,
no one really cares.

It was upsetting to see my classmates BORED watching.
Like they had no emotions.
It was simply, "Oh, that sucks".

I was making jokes but,
Honestly watching the video made me feel like shit.
I had to joke around or else i would've ended up crying.

Rant

Highschool is definitely filled with ignorant and stupid people.
Im not saying im not one of them because i know im ignorant and stupid & in other people's eyes i must fall into those categories.
But here is my rant.

This is especially towards girls.
Some of them happen to care about "World Peace", "No War", "No Hate".
and that's fine, whatever makes them happy in life.
But if i see it coming from someone
who cant even handle their own SHIT.
meaning, they cant even handle their own little STUPID highschool drama
they need to shut up.

What do they do?
We all do what we do the best.
Talk Smack.

If you want "No Hate"
you better make sure your personality is CLEAN.

My anger issue

is very terrible.
It's difficult to handle my own self
Especially it has to deal with me in the situation.

I get short temper from my mom
i get my anger issue from my biological dad
and that's not a beautiful mixture.
But here i am.

You guys have no clue of what nasty images i have in my head.
and WISH i could do to some of the people who cross upon my life.

but i get over my anger in an hour ish.
and im a happy person again :D

StrawberryPie

My bestfriend made me this today ;;

It was yummy♥

Ughhh i think it's cause i ditched yesterdayy but today felt soooo long and soooo tiring.
I didnt even do muchh.

Renai Circulation

Hi, i skipped school today

simply because i didnt want to walk in this SUPER windy weather.

I took pictures ;;

& i finished an anime that i procrastinated.
化物語(Bakemonogatari)

i dont really know why i lost interest after few episodes.

Because it's really interesting. Silly me.

Well anywhoo, i enjoyed this :)

Boy

I gotta watch my back, Cause im not just anybody

it's sad

You gain one friendship, you lose one.
The only people i always hang out
and always hits me up are my best friend and my boyfriend.

Since freshmen year,
i've lost alot of best friends.
Infact too many best friends.

This year i was wanting more friendships
but i lost em.

im feelin low right now.

March

ootd;

Yo!
it just hit me that it's March already! Daayuuumnn.

fast ne?

Mya,
i got paid.

Metaphor.

After procrastinating for months,

I finally finished FLCL.