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No matter how much "social" i try to be at school, at the end of the day i realize i dont have "friends" rather "acquaintances". No matter how much i try to get in touch with the person i used to be close with, our conversation dies and they dont bother talking to me. No matter how much i try to not to think of the past, everything bugs me. No matter how nice i try to be, i end up joking around and at the end of the day, im a bitch. No matter how hard i try to make new friends, someone i can talk to, i end up being antisocial and scared. No matter how much i laugh at school, when im home in my room, i feel like complete shit. No matter how hard i try to not to get jealous, it happens because im a jealous person. No matter how hard i try to be positive, on the side it's all negative.